Strange Dreams No Carbs Diet at least not after 9pm

I had the strangest dreams last night! Trying to describe them will only frustrate me and bore you to tears but I will say somewhere in this luquid world of images and bizzare meetings of people I haven't seen, or thought about in years I was accused of being a prostitute by a church......"lord help me!"

Shot some cool pixs of flowers (amoung other things) yesterday. And am currently working on a painting. I have been quiet busy with "summer" and am still getting my groove. Adding one more kid in the morning ritual changes more than one may think. So to those that I haven't talked to and you know who you are:) I will get back to you next week.

Until then I am committed.

Today matt is out of town and jack got out of school so i was in full force. I had all three kids for the first time on my own. I mean that in relation to what they are capable of doing and what has to get done. Each little beautiful child of mine, (yours too superman), is now up and running on full battery. It seems the first two years you are just getting them able to do the littlest of things....walk, talk, play,eat etc....that by the time you get them really going....it's a surprise how much they CAN do.....today we all four...and I am not kidding, i think it is the first time ever that we all four went out together to run arrands. Now in LA I did it with jack, in ktown, jack and logan, but buy the time Tatum came around I had all these helping hands (thank you!) that I have never really had to go out and figure out how to work with all of them together in public. They were GREAT! Jack even helped push tatum in the cart! Now of course, they all were eating their weight in sugar (cotton candy, fruit jellies etc) but shit, at least they were just "hanging'. We got out of target with each a toy and some candy............... I was a really proud MOM:) I love them SOOOOOOOOO much...they are the light of my life and the chaos in my claim little world..........that I can't live without............sweet dreams little "fockers".....................

Happy Birthday Mom Mom Mary--aka MOM

I just wanted to say Happy (late) Birthday to the best mother - in- law a girl could ask for. I was putting the kids down and didn't get to wish you a happy bday, but "mom mom mary, your the best. always have been since the first day I met you. Thank you for always being there and for your beautiful smile....I love you! Steph

I have nothing else to say...................what the f@@@##$%^&&&!

I have been swamped with life this week.
Doctors, school appointments,arrands. I feel full. I feel have no more space.

I listen to classical music these days, simply because it feels good. It doesn't make me think, like so much music today... words, pain, love, lust.

It makes me feel. There are no words for the feelings--just movement inside. A gentle movement like rocking a baby to sleep. It's nice. It centers me.

Am I aging? Or am I just getting more what life is really about?

A little of both I know...but the latter is more comforting than the first. Classical music was always something "the adults" listened to...when I was a kid...know I am the adult...watching my kids and they will think the same. Life. Oh Life....beautifully said by Emily Dickinson, "That it will never come again is what makes it so sweet". That gives me goose bumps with a sigh of awh.....

Maybe the weather, but I am certainly in a "mood" today!:)

On another note....Jack has offically graduated and moving on the kindergarden! He is doing so well and is moving rigth along....thanks to everyone who supports and helps our, "deep blue something! he's mr. amazing......

To all the moms I know......Happy Day to you! Each one of us holds a beauty that is one of a kind and collective. We are the same, yet different. We are the creative life force of life......thanks to the beautiful lady that is my source and and who gives me a solid board to lean on day in and day out while I figure out how to be as good a mom as she has been to me, to my "little suzy's"...Mom, "Linda" as we so affectionately call her....I LOVE YOU! THANKS FOR BEING MY MOM...THEN AND NOW...ALWAYS.....

I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pleased to say "jones mo" is back in action and working at top notch I must say! It's been a lonely two weeks!

Today has been full of kids and such so not a lot of time to spend here at the type pad.....very little to say except my triceps are sore and I can't wait for matt to get home for the weekend! So much to do! So much to do to the house, yard, with kids, but all I want to do is veg...veg on some painting and/or photography...or even a good book! So much, so little spare time!

To blog or not to blog. I feel in-between today. Sitting on the fence with most things except that I really want my "jones mo" back! For those who haven't been offically introduced...that's my canon rebel. My camera. My eye. My thoughts. My self. Over the year it has certainly an extension of my whole being. Hopfully by mid-week it will arrive. Working!

The kids are playing 'independently. Matt and I literaly now have three kid stations set up. The living room with cable and tivo...copmuters....and a new tv that sits by the fire place for wii and dvds. Now the thought was that at any point, we...us adults...who, yes, still live in this house, can watch anything besides children programing at any time. So we really goT it for us...but we can us it to get some space and get some things done.....like blog!:) and clean i suppose............

I am working on looking at cleaning like a buddiest monk would....zen like.....

Zen in the art of house cleaning...maybe there is a book in there?:)

Gotta run and have a tea party with Tatum. Happy Monday to all and to all a good week!