Where Am I?

I can't seem to find myself this moring. Has any one seen me?

coffee

I search for balance feeling the early morning sun

birds sing

i sip

birds fly

i slowly start to spread my wings

i open one shoulder blade at a time

i stretch a little higher from my lower back

my eyes see more in focus

my mind more maliable, more willing to bend

to see things from angles outside my fant dreams of night

i still taste them, but have no real sense of my sleepy wishes

my dreams are my morning coffee bringing me back

to reality

cup

after

cup

Tonight Cyn and I are going to have a small showing at Nostalga. I am going to take some prints and some mixed media tiles and display. It's fun no matter what talking to other people who are interested in, if not so much what you are doing but at least the world you do it in.

I have reconnected and met some great people since returning home three years ago. Knoxville certainly has its little underground circut of artists. There are a lot of creative people here in town.....wonderfully creative, funny, authentic, down to earth people. I wonder why we don't feel the touch of them like we feel the touch of UT football. This is an "orange" town. If anyone came to Knoxville that is what they would not only see...but also feel. Wouldn't it be nice to find a way to put a "touch" of Creative out there and see what color of Orange appears?

Matt is gone for three days. I have the whole bed to myself IF my kids don't come knockin'. Of course they will and I will find myself curled up at the edge of the bed, a KING size bed at that, having to give out milk every four hours. I am slightly sleep deprived. I think I am used to it but when reminded I am pooped! Life with kids is really on the fly. I never know what is going to happen next. I LIKE it that way. Keeps me on my toes. Never take anything for granted. The saying goes, " Expect the unexpected." If I didn't have that I would shrivel up and wilt I believe. Life is too mundane to not include the many variables of existence.....thank God.....no pun intened....I don't think:)

I have some new shots....I take so many pictures it's hard to say when I took them, but I know these were in the past three days. It's still winter here in TN and I feel the pressure. I am living in the "inbetween" right now.....I like it when its snows and I like it when the sun shines. I am still now sure what I like best...it seems to depend on my mood. Like always. Life is so much "mood">Is that being female or human? I am not sure. But it IS my reality....what I am UP FOR is a huge indication of what I think..... "I think therefore I am"....figure out the rest.....

I renamed my Esty store.

"mind IS matter studio" check it out....IStephanie.etsy.com. I have some 9 things posted and am working on more projects to post and sale, but I think there is enough to start. I am also doing a show this weekend to see if I can generate some interest in what I am doing. It's a slippery slope, not caring what others think, but wanting others to like and BUY what I create. I try to just concentrate on the "doing' .... I am having fun...that's what matters.

Hope all is staying warm and happy...good day to all

Spinning

I woke up today spinning.

I think to point for me right now, in my life, is to spin. Let it go if you will. I am messing around with alot of diffent stuff, needle felting, collaging, painting my photos, I did this sunflower a couple of months ago. It was one of the first "alterations" I did. I like it, it makes me think of my nana. So I titled it "Nana's Day". I miss her:)

I am working everyday on something knew. I am still working on my weaving project and I have started and completed several mixed media tiles. Check them out at "istephanie.etsy.com" I also have some new ideas brewing. I am spinning in many directions. I keep wondering if I want to go get an MFA. It's a thought. I would certainly direct me. But being self taught has it's advantages too. No matter what I will keep spinning and see what I come up with Gold? Only Repunzel knows.

An after thought...I think this may say it all.....

Dantes Inferno

Our future...my kids.....

I love them

I'm sick of them

I can't live without them

They make me laugh

They make me cry

They make me see myself "exposed"

They make me move

They make me sleep

They make me giggle

They make me proud

They make me..................

a mom.......

today was one of those days when my kids made me realize that life is short and life is long and life is full of markers, and chocolate milk, and colds, and mac and cheese, and messy home, and long deep breaths, and a good glass of wine.

Today has been full of kids and winter. I have managed to get some things done today here is one mixed media project I finished today and some others I have finished recentely. You can visit my store on Etsy.com if your interested in them or just to see what I am up to. I'm having fun and I feel a jolt of creativity when I do them so I guess no matter what ----it's worth it!:)

My etsy store is

IStephanie.etsy.com

I have just started so there is alot more product to see. I am trying to post daily so I can get it all up!

Happy Winter!

Old Man Winter

Winter-

Smerks as it holds us down in our heated homes-

It's a picture worth taking...looking out the window...quiet and still like a newborn sleeping-

It is as soft as silk-

I find myself wondering in my mind

Escaping to places up and down over and under the sun-

Dogwood trees skined like lambs for wool-

Remember the leaves that lived in October?

I feel cold watching the wind blow-

Poor little buds I hope for all our sake you bloom.....

Soon

shades of gray

today is a gray day. this weather is getting to me. i am feeling the pressure of winter weighing down on my bones. Trying to focus on happy thoughts. like........

i got my zoom lens back! it was a long miserable 6 weeks looking at the red birds on the trees outside my kitchen window. but now it's home. i named it. it's a boy. his name is jones mo....why? don't know...it just is....i name everything....i guess i like relationships.

there is not a lot going on this winter day. tatum and logan are in a bath. jack is at school. matt is at work. i am here too. i am always somewhere. looking in.

interesting....TN at it's best...in some rounds

Thanks superman.

It's all in the questions.

wondering why I am who I am at all.