A GOOD PLACE

SATURDAY

The birds are going crazy outside my window.  It's 7am and I am getting ready to go set up at an outdoor art market and sell.  It's a little unnerving.  I don't know how people will respond to my "art".
Do I care?  That's a tricky question.
  Of course I some ways I want to be liked and praised and in others I dismiss the need and concentrate on the what brought me here in the first place.
What an adult way to look at things Steph, I think to myself as I write that down.  Yes, I am differently an adult and yes I have fought many dragons to get to this "piece of my mind".
 I don't need the approval or the praise or the money.  So I am in a really good place to get venerable.  

After acting school and trying to work that system for 8 years I learned a lot about "subjectivity" and about what makes me tick.  I also learned that I will NEVER know what makes someone else "tick".  So when I do a project and I spend my energy and my give my perspective I am doing it solely for my own self.

 It feels good.  It feels right.  I share this with you to hear myself I suppose.  I am reassuring myself that as the days go by and I pour my heart into my artistic endeavors.........I am still inside.

I know that I am doing it all for me.  No one else.  And the 8 years I traveled from coast to coast I was only focused on the one in front of me.  I was giving away all my power and didn't know it.

Gee, had I only known....maybe I'd be a "super star" hhehheheeeeee.....no thanks!

 I am way too private for that kind of show!

Good Saturday to all and listen to a bird when you get a chance....they give out wonderful advice!

LONGING FOR

SPRING IS TEASING US HERE IN THE SOUTH
it keeps opening and closing its eyes
the sun is out
the rain falls
the wind is warm
the wind comes cold
last night we built a fire to stay warm
today i am in a sweater and uggs
i wanted to plant some flowers today

somehow the inspiration has left me
the birds are singing, but my bones are cold, my mind is full and closing down
every year when spring comes i find a lightness that pushes me into a higher version of my self
every spring i find my self waiting to see me step up a notch and exceed my current limits
i look forward to the boost
i know it will come
when spring
comes
and
sits
on
my skin
long enough
to
seep
down
to my
soul

holy mother of cow.....i just upgraded my computer to a whopping imac 27 inch widescreen .... i feel like i just got off the rocket ship to mars!  it's crazy!!!!!


 I will let you know if I meet any aliens!!!

  surely right?

This weekend was so busy that I didn't get to post a very special BDAY to my

SUPERMAN.

  I love you tons and hope you know I couldn't live a day without all that you are and all that you do!  Hope your "Birthday Weekend"  was fun for you!  I know the kids and I had a blast!   For those that didn't know the plan we started off "surprising" him with the kids present....Chucky Cheese!  for three hours...pizza and games....little did I know they serve BEER!!!!! who knew!

Then we celebrated that night with family and ate and drank ourselves in birthday bliss.  If anything Matt can do is have a good time!  Thanks babe for being so much fun:)

OH yea!

Happy Birthday!!!!! To a very dear friend!

It's been TOOOOOOOOO long...get down here!!!!
Hope your day is full of happiness and good eating:)

ode' to spring

blooms blooming right on time


popping up like popcorn


spring is  springing


spring is speaking


spring is singing outloud!

ode' to spring and the sun shining down


ode' to the rain that falls 


ode' to the a new season


a new-ness all around


winter has come and gone and spring is here


soon the grass will be green and the bees will be flying 


soon the leaves will be hiding the neighbors 






soon


grills will be cooking and the sound of laughter will fill the air 


while children find themselves blowing bubbles, digging in the dirt, and climbing trees

soon


spring will put on another award winning show


the curtain is up


the windows are up


the house inhales


the winter escapes with the wind


closets are cleaned and fireplaces swept


time to spring 


time to spring into moving in and out of the back door


while listening to the band of birds rocking out to their own favorite song and

I say.........


ROCK ON!

The Anderson Crazies

Matt and I were having wine tonight and cooking. Imagine that!

 I bought wings last night at Sam's and was hoping to grill them tonight on the grill.  Mother nature had other plans and the rain brought us indoors and to the stove.  We decided to put another spice combo on them and bake them.  CUMIN.  

I realized that cumin is something that really makes me melt.

 I LOVE the aroma. It really does something to my nose that not many spices can do.

 When I was pregnant with Logan I learned to LOVE CURRY.  I hated it until I was shopping at the farmers market in LA and found myself craving Curry Puffs at a stand called the "banana boat"--I ate them day after day until I became a "puff" myself and then out came Logan.

Logan is SO CURRY!

Jack is SO CILANTRO!


Tatum is SO SWEET!

I couldn't  stand the taste of Cilantro until Jack came along, and now I LOVE IT!

Until Miss Tatum came along I never craved SWEETS.

 AND now I have have something SWEET at least once a every 2 days!

FOOD is a big part of my everyday life.

We cook like a resturant and love to eat and find new foods to make on a daily bases.   I have recently given the kitchen over to Matt so he can cook, A. because he rocks! and B. because I really would be doing something else.   I LOVE to cook, but it's not my time.  I LOVE to do other things right now, paint, go through my pixs etc.  I have so little time to my self that I really have to pick and choose what I do.  I choose to NOT cook.

I will however, LOVE to eat .....good foods and foods made from PASSION, which Matt does! (thanks honey for all the meals!)

I guess the point is ....I LOVE Cumin.  It made me happy tonight.  The smell.  I love to see Matt cooking in the kitchen after a long day, even though it it CRAZY in the house..we are all getting tired.....I love the smell and the antispation of what is on the way!  Until then....I am in my studio doing what I can to create---something ---that has been brewing in my vision all day long..... .

Cook. Eat. Create.

Life is good.